Sunday, June 21, 2009

Thinking about my Health

The other day I picked up my prescription of Arimidex at the pharmacy. To be completely honest I am not thrilled. Standing at the kitchen sink looking out the window I felt a sense of rebellion come over me. I really do not want to take this medicine, it has nasty side effects. It isn't going to do anything nice to my bones, I know that. The doctor is allowing 6 refills. AS IF!

I feel like I am beat up, especially with not taking hormones. Every once in awhile I sneak some DHEA or progesterone cream just because I can't stand the body aches, moodiness, etc. Arimidex will only add to what I already have. I have been taking Vitamin D supplement and I feel that has really helped my immune system. But, ever since what happened to me, the ruptured bowel, the sepsis, etc. I do not have strength and stamina like I used. My boys notice it. When riding a bike I can be unstable at times. Or when when I do the vacuuming, I have to stop and rest. My boys look out for me, they are sweets for that.

The pain is better than when I began this journey I have to admit that. And whatever is wrong on the left side of my intestine is not as painful as it was after the take down of my colostomy. The pain I used to feel in my colon before this whole mess is gone. No more pulling or terrible cramping when I have a BM. The reconnection is fine, no pain at all there. Praise God.

I might be able to live with this intestinal pain, the feeling of it is like a lap band (it keeps me thin). Something gets hung up there and I feel pressure, so I press on that pain spot which brings on a burp. Then it feels like the food moves on through. Strange. I have managed to stay in the range of 100 to 102 lbs. for months now. Not taking hormones seems to have helped lessen the pain, but I still get mild flare ups. I try to track them on a calendar, but I am finding there is no definite pattern. I am not quite sure if the lessening of pain is the loosening of scar tissue or the endo has shrunk. I know for sure the lump inside my tummy on the left has shrunk along with the pain.

Well, sickness is round about this house. Brandon is doing better, but now Mark and Eric are coughing. Still no one is as sick as Brandon was. I have decided to wait till sickness is gone before trying this medicine. I can only handle so much at a time.


Susan said...

Becky, I will pray for you. What a lot you are enduring ... makes me feel like a wimp with my measly complaints. I am sure it is scary to start a new med with scary side effects ... will be praying for you re. that as well. Thanks for keeping us posted, and give those sweet boys a hug for me :)

Rachel Smith said...

Thinking of you! I am praying that you will have a good day with few pains and lots of blessings.

You have a lovely blog award over at my blog. Come and claim it!

Becky said...

Susan, thank you for your prayers. If I can pray for you about anything please let me know.

Becky said...

Rachel, thank you so much for your prayers and the award. You are so sweet!