Endometriosis still Reigns

Well, I went off to my doctor appointment in a good spirit. I had a very pleasant visit with my bowel doctor. The biopsy of my esophagus came back negative, everything is completely normal. Both the doctor and myself were relieved and happy. I have to marvel at how the Lord works. My bowel doctor and I were on the same page this morning, that page was endometriosis. I told him that I have consulted with my endometriosis doctor regarding the pain in my bowel and he said there is a possibility that I am dealing with endometriosis and he wants to put me on Danazol. My bowel doctor thinks that is a good idea. So that is the next step for me. My bowel doctor said there may come a time when he will need to go in and take a look, but right now is not the time. He wants to see me back in 3 months to see how the treatment is going, which I appreciate him sticking with me like that.

When I think of all of this I am crushed. I went into that surgery in 2007 hoping and praying that I would finally be free from endometriosis. Then with me nearly losing my life only to come out still having endometriosis is a hard thing to accept. I now think that I will never be free of this disease.

Recently, my sons were watching the movie Prince Caspian and this morning the song The Call from the movie stuck in my head. Somehow it has been helping me get through. Here are some of the words.

The Call
by Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

This morning my devotional was titled "The Honor Of Your Friendship", the verse "I have called you friends." John 15:15. I know who my friend is...Jesus. He will always be with me.